Last week, I put up some stuff on fear because it is something that I have been struggling with.
Regretting the decisions that I have made in my life is one of my biggest fears. I always wonder if I am doing something wrong and it scares the crap out of me. In order to keep from feeling afraid in the past, I resorted to not doing anything at all.
For the first time, I am able to admit this problem and I think that this is a big step.
Instead of running away, I now force myself to sit and think about what I have to lose.
If I try and fail then I can pick my self up and try again, but if I never try then I will never know.
Never knowing what I could have done or who I could have helped is the worst thing imaginable to me.
Now, I am constantly going against my inner thoughts and fears. I refuse to keep quiet out of fear that someone will not agree. I refuse to be simple-minded because I am afraid to fail.I refuse to let anyone tell me what I can and cannot do. I can do anything that I put my mind to. I will not stop.
“Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.”
-Louis E. Boone